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How we doing?
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Furious Flowers.
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Y'all like, oh we too tired to clap.
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We are going to go ahead and get our Black Universe IV reading started.
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I'm so excited to have this final lineup of, I don't know, supernovas in our, in our Black poetry constellation.
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I don't know.
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I'm pushing that metaphor all the way y'all.
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But, um, we are going to do the, do we have done it three times, so I think we know how it goes.
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Our poets are going to introduce each other.
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Uh, we are going to get our minds repeatedly blown and we will clap for it.
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Like we, you know, let them know the love.
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And, um, our first poet is Terrance Hayes.
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All right, y'all, I heard you.
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I didn't wanna with no socks.
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Okay.
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Uh, I, I got one thing really to read y'all that I've been working on for you.
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But, with all this dear stuff, I feel like I should throw in my little, my deer poem from one of these books.
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I think it's, can I say it's for Roger?
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I'm gonna say it's for Roger.
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Uh, How to Be Drawn is the book it was in.
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The Deer.
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Uh, I'm so glad to be here.
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I knew I was gonna forget to do that.
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Lauren, Joanne, I love y'all.
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Y'all just make it home, you know, you'll make it home.
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And as soon as I knew I was coming, I started thinking about this moment of what I would do for my family.
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So that's what I've been working on.
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But here, let's, let's do this deer thing first.
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Outside Pataskala I saw the deer with a soft white belly, the deer with two eyes as blind as holes, I saw it leap from a bush beside the highway as if
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a moment before it leapt it had been a bush beside the highway, and saw how if I wished it, I could be the deer, a creature bony as a branch in spring,
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and when I closed my eyes, I found the scent of muscadine, the berry my mother plucked Sundays from the roadside
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where fumes toughened its speckled skin and seeds slept, suspended in a mucus thick as the sleep of an embryo.
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It is the ugliest berry along the road, but chewed it reminded me of speed, and I saw when I was the deer that I didn't have to be a deer,
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I could become a machine with a woman inside it moving at a speed that leaves a stain on the breeze and on the muscadine's flesh, which is almost meat, the sweet
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pulp a muscadine leaves when it's crushed in the teeth of a deer, or a mother for that matter or her child waiting with something like shame to be fed
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a berry uglier than shame, though it is not like this for the deer, it is not shame because the deer is
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not human, it is only almost human when it looks on the road and leaps covering at least thirty feet in a
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blink, the deer I cannot be, the dumb deer, dumb and foolish enough to ignore anything that runs but is not alive,
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a trafficking machine filled with a distracted mind and body deadly and durable enough to deconstruct
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a deer when it leaps, I'm telling you, like someone being chased.
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I remember, I remember a friend told me how, when he was eight or nine, a half-naked woman ran to the
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car window crying her man was after her with a knife, but his mother locked the doors and sped away.
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Someone tell him his mother was not a coward.
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That's what he thinks.
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Tell him it was because he and his little brother were in the car,
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she would not let the troubled world inside.
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It was no one's fault.
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The mind separated from the body.
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I could almost see the holes of her eyes, the white fuzz on her tongue, the raised buds soft as a bed of pink seeds, the
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hole of a mouth stretched wide enough to hold a whole baby inside, I could almost see its eyes at the back of her throat,
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I could definitely hear its cries.
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Woo.
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Alright, so let's see how this thing gonna work out here.
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Uh, I just read for the rest of my time.
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The two books came out last year and I have been, uh, you know, I try not to do stuff.
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So I haven't sent this out.
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I haven't shown it to anybody.
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I, I've just been working on it.
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And so it's, uh, I was telling Roger like half guzzles, so if you don't know what the guzzle is, I'm gonna say that
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just means it's a caught between my brain and my heart, like caught in my throat.
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If you do know what the guzzle is, it's like a half guzzle, which is like some of the rules, like the
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refrain that comes through and which would be like I said to myself and then maybe said is bouncing around.
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Don't worry about it.
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Let's just see what happens.
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Sometimes I say to myself, I said to myself, as my mother used to say in a way that made an echo of the things she said to herself and me.
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Cynthia Ozick said a sentence is a kind of voice with its own suspense.
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Its secret inner queries, its chance, idiosyncrasies, and soliloquy.
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Gil Scott-Heron said, I am the closest thing I have to a voice of reason.
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I said to the doctor, I am achy, gassy, forgetful, and I pee too much.
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The doctor said, that's not illness, Terrance.
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That's just aging.
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If it ain't a disease, why is everybody trying to cure it?
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I said to myself.
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Webster said, epiphora was, exec was excessive watering of the eye and also plural for epistrophe, the
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repetition of a word at the end of a successive clauses and sentences, Thelonious Monk figured it out.
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The park was the first, at first name, Crystal Lake.
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The guide said then for the local star, now after the company that hired the star, but I never got the name of the park because I said to myself,
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the man who behaves as if he will become a statue in the park, dreams of becoming no more than a place.
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The sign outside the bathroom said, wash your hand.
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The sign inside the damn elevator said, out of order.
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I said to my son, it is not only an imperative to wash your hands, but to exit public bathrooms without
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touching any faucets or handles that may have been handled by those who did not wash their hands.
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Somewhere Basquiat said, we decided the bullet must have been going very fast.
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What concerns me is the enemy we face does not care about wrong or right.
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They only care about winning or losing, I said to you.
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When the Sufi said dance was the best way to speak with God, I decided to dance a little bit every day.
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Thelonious Monk said, the genius is the one who is most himself.
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Samuel Johnson said, a man of genius has seldom been ruined by himself.
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Nietzsche said, talking about oneself is also a means of concealing oneself.
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Defending Kenneth Koch, Frank O'Hara said, not the least function of poetry is to make vivid our sense of the meaning of words.
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Sometimes her bling is backwards I think somebody said.
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I want to turn Rothko's canvases on their side so his doorways become landscapes I said to myself.
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I think knowing Mark Rothko killed himself colors how you see the paintings, I said to you.
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There's just no way to know who in the room can actually sing before the singing starts
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I said to myself.
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Gil Scott-Heron said, no matter how far wrong you've gone, you can always turn around.
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A bird flies in two directions at once.
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I said to myself, toward the center and toward the border.
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It's said, that it's said, Lucille Clifton was born with an extra finger, means something, I said to myself.
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Every day, you are a prisoner trying to master time.
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The signs in the park said, free healing, free fortune telling, free Palestine.
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He said, the cops said to put my hands up after I was in handcuffs.
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She said, the police said to put my hands up after I was in handcuffs.
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They said the pig said to put my hands up after I was in handcuffs.
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Tried and true strategies of fortitude for the self and family in the quadrants of emotional, spiritual, social, and creative life.
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The name of Hamlet's dog, the Elizabethans' passions for lust.
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My son is Paul Salon, my daughter of the flower of reason and mystery.
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I said I would study their subjectivities myself.
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A wounded heart can become infected if not allowed to heal.
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My mother said the first grader's teacher said the class should call her dumb Dora for the rest of the year 'cause of something
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She said.
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She because of something she said, but she doesn't remember remember telling me because she said it to herself.
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The people pushing along the sidewalk with no regard for others are terrible dancers, I said to myself.
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She should have said the candidate's actual only campaign platform was white supremacy.
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I said to you.
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The power, power requires to sustain power is always trouble, I said to myself.
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Peter Sellers said he had a violent aversion to the colors purple and green.
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That's true.
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Nina Simone said, birds flying high, you know how I feel.
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And I said, I'm feeling.
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Nina Simone said, sun in the sky, you know how I feel.
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And I said, I'm feeling.
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Use two ears,
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I said to myself, because one must listen for both the perceived truth and the actual truth.
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The perceived is for that which can seem for a period of time, a moment, a spell, a stretch, or so true, or the actual truth can take a time to tell to be true.
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Go to the place you would like to be planted, carrying a shovel and a satchel, holding all the seeds of all the fruit you have eaten in your life,
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I said to no one.
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You will receive further instructions from the other side of the path after I've had my run in with the darkness.
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A family can be torn apart in the dark, I said to myself.
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Ginsberg said William Carlos Williams said, we have all sold ourselves out for heaven as if this earth was excrement shat down from the sky.
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You can't embrace God, so you embrace yourself, you said without saying, God put you here to be witness, I said.
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You know it's addiction because you can't understand why other people don't do it, I said to you.
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You know other people don't do it, but you can't understand why they don't do it, I said to myself.
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We grow learning to accept our parents, to accept ourselves,
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I should have said to my son.
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The black people who have video for family archives and those who have boxes of photos are luckier than the black people,
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like my people who have almost nothing to show for our past, I said to myself.
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On this day in history, my grandmother, who became a grandmother before 40 and has been single all of her 89 years,
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having never lived alone until now, said again, it is glad to be alive.
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The drive, it is good to be alive.
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The driver said he'd been given a 9 1 1 vision on an island mountain, but he didn't understand it until after it happened.
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Other people said the same thing, I said to myself.
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An aneurysm of the heart, my brother said, describing a heart attack or break.
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An aneurysm of the heart,
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I said to myself.
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When someone asked if I ever imagined a whole war set in motion by something like that, I said no.
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But I said to myself, no, I had not considered the best path from the woods to the blood of the one or two cows
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and horses in the field after their throats are cut for silence and measure.
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I refuse to make a monster of myself creeping into the home of the enemy or villain, the loved ones uncloaked in Moonlight The sad, y'all are the
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last one to live the most rotten and thus worthy of suffering the sadness one lives after that.
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I did not imagine that.
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The children complain.
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They did not ask to be born into this terrible world, but that's true of every animal ever born.
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Where a canary in a mine is a sign of trouble, a crow dragging another crow from the road, as I have witnessed, is a sign there is mercy in the world.
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Where a crow in the bar is a sign, a door or window is open, or that the crow has followed you from the cemetery, a crow in the barn is a sign of nothing.
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An owl in the barn is a sign ghosts are watching.
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The sign say, stay back.
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The sign said detour.
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Everyone said they heard of the warnings.
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James Joyce said, an object immensely regarded may be a gate to the access to the incorruptible eon of the gods.
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One who has become all eyes does not see.
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And as Martin said, Flannery O'Connor said, someone said, Flaubert said it takes at least three activated sensuous strokes to make an object real.
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Where some students find The Artificial Nigger by Flannery O'Connor explores the irreducible non-linear transfusions of
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confusion for white folks perpetually lost and colored people frozen, like lawn jockey's in New America.
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Some students find its clear evidence of Flannery O'Connor's racism because her title implies she can identify a real nigger.
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A body that refuses to listen to itself quickly becomes trouble, I said to myself.
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Gil Scott-Heron said, turn around, turn around, turn around.
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You may come full circle and be new here again.
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Power is like a drug that only fills you with the desire for the drug, I told you.
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No one said those juvenile years, the adult inside the parent is disliked or even despised by the child.
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The adult comes to understand what it means to be judged unworthy by someone you care for.
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No one said those years are also the years you must come to terms with being the master.
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The role of Lord and enforcer governing a self, both like and other than yourself.
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The comedian said after neurosis said, a neurosis is when someone has a fear of no control, making them neurotic.
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While a psychosis is when someone has an illusion of total control, making them psychotic.
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I think optimism is a kind of psychosis.
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The officer said, do you know how fast you were going along the interstate of my home state in South Carolina?
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The people who stayed said after flames were thrown on their fields and the shacks in those fields and the bodies in the shacks, everything in the field
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of flame became ash, which when muddled with rain and mud and time renewed the field and the scene of the crime,
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I said to myself.
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My son kept to himself the year he lived with me.
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Everything inside him was burning until he was blushing, unwillingly, without speaking, expressing himself.
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One of the Hughes' said the word tattooed wall to wall on the inside of the skull is horizon.
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Every honest statement is the stay against entropy.
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Each false statement accelerates our journey to the end of the world, I said to myself.
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In that other life, I'm a celloist by day and a jazz bassist by night.
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My satchel of bows like arrows and my instrument, like a giant wooden sculpture of a big mouth bass pivoting on a spear.
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I survive to sing what I say to myself.
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Where some do not grasp what's special in Nina Simone until suffering a little bit of living,
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I did not until a thorough heartbreak fully appreciate Tammi Terrell.
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Wisdom requires submission through that which is greater than power.
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The guy said, Van Gogh, I'm gonna, we're almost here.
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The guy said, van Gogh's mother, like the typical Dutch mother, was obsessed with clean cleaning and the purity of the soul.
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If we can agree how inexplicable it is to be alive, can we agree how desperately, once simply wants to know what happens after death?
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You know and I know something wholly otherworldly dwells at the periphery of everything.
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Only you are afraid to call it anything less than religion, where I'm afraid to call it anything but something no one could name.
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I want to show you what it's all about all over again, I said to you.
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A heart that is partly turtle, partly tortoise, housed in an emerald shell.
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A mind that is partly goldfish, partly shellfish, wrapped in water, wrapped in glass.
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What didn't happen can still be true, I said to you.
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She said she stole just a dollar to test the scale of retribution.
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When Chomsky said, slavery is now regarded as reprehensible because the people in power have become more tolerant, I
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said to myself, it's because the people in power realized the cost to keep enslaved and slave was unsustainable.
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They were equally immoral motherfuckers who realized slavery was bad business.
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I said to my son, pigeons are essentially rats with wings, which makes them worse than wax rats 'cause they're flying rats.
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Once
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they were a person who looked like you and me, and at various parts of the day thought the same things as us.
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But after many fussy hustling, Sisyphean hours pushing and dragging, and being stoned by the big jagged
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rocks of life became someone both like you and other than you and myself.
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When the path turned to stones, I found the rock.
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When the rock cracked open, I found an egg.
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When the egg broke, I found a tiny emerald turtle.
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When the turtle began to grow, I sharpened half the rock against a stone.
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When I sharpened the rock, sparks splintered into flame when the flame was high and the turtle the size of an emerald helmet a crown with a sunroof,
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I wrote myself.
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Down with gravity, I tell the version of myself that heads to the bathroom to weep in the stall at the movies.
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Brother, don't run, I said to the screen, if they're gonna shoot you anyway, make them look you in the face.
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The sign said, caution.
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Wet floor danger.
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The sign said Free Palestine.
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The sign suggested things people said were signs.
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Someone said, I noticed all of the portraits of truly great writers the mouth is always closed.
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Somewhere Rilke said, religion is art to those who have no creativity, God is the most ancient work of art.
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Still, I hope in time we'll meet again, said Beverly Glenn-Copeland, who I thought for many years was a woman with the goatee and then briefly a man in transition.
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And I now know to be an outer cart, an uncategorical musician.
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Still in time, I hope we'll meet again.
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The menu said it was chicken, but I'm telling you that ain't taste like no chicken.
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You don't want to have to do it, you have to want to do it, I said to myself.
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Frank Stanford said, Francis said both his hands were black as two boots worn in a Bible flood.
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When he blacked out
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he laughed like a cracked milk bottle, like the drowned black music kicking around in the mouth of a whale and river.
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Like the three spells the midwife cast over the sleeping child, the teenage parents and the dog who does not speak but barks with tribal accent.
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Someone said, why bother with mirrors in glass houses?
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It's best to be a minor guard with eyes in the back of your head and eyeglasses popped as if trying to give your mind a view of heaven.
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That's how Patricia always wear her glasses, I said to myself.
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There are people who have said, I don't know what I would've done had it not been for this or that, but no one knows where
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they'd be if they had not done what they did not do to get here or where they are.
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Having exposed my hunger, I cover my plate after every meal as if it was a se, as if it was the scene of a crime, because
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in my childhood, desiring food was a sign of neediness, I should have said to you.
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The practice of drawing is self-actualization exercise, I said to myself, one sees something in the mind
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and attempts to put a representation of that vision in the world.
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My son said, I talked to him like a professor.
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I'll be your father regardless of our bond, I said to my son.
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You have seen where I'm from, I said to my son another time, boy, I will fuck you up.
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I asked myself why I said it after that.
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Nostalgia, Homer Simpson said, everything we loved about the past except for how it got us to the present.
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Someone said things simply have the virtue of having never been done.
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We are on a journey to find happiness inside and outside our families.
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In the meantime, we pass the time making stuff, I said to my son.
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I just don't want you to be anybody's slave I said to him.
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You must learn to be your own mother and father,
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I said to myself.
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Um, thank you.
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Alright, now
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coming up next, someone, also someone who just always feels like family.
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She just always feels like somebody I grew up with could have grown up with and maybe did grow up with.
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And she was just, I don't know.
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Evie Shockley, she knows all the words.
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Come on, Evie.
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Oh my gosh.
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Okay.
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That, that doesn't make it easier to follow him.
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Terrance, thanks for that beautiful reading.
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Um, thank you all.
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Thank you, Lauren.
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Thank you Joanne.
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Um, poetry lovers.
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Let's do this thing.
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Um, I, I have a few things I wanna do.
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I wanna, um, I was inspired by some of the readings over the course of these three days to, um, to share an elegy that I
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wrote because I love the way that people's names are being brought into the room.
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Uh, so that's where I'm gonna start.
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How long has this Jayne been gone?
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Not long.
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Not long.
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In fact, she's back flapping with the gale force laughter of the first kites of March.
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Growling like a motorcycle of liberation.
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Howling like the angel of field hollers at the bleachers of poetic apathy where they're always ready to make some noise, but never get in the game.
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Oh, yes, she's back.
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Back like she was never gone.
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Still blues washing over the whitewashing of the music.
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Still pinning the tail on the covert donkey of domination.
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Still hissing wisdom into the imperial bath water.
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Still cussing the fuck out of evil rapist punks and the friendly ones too.
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She's right beneath your mama's left breast right up in the cook footed cornbread.
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Still breaking out like sweat on the drummer's forehead.
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Still chuckling in the backyard over her hot diasporas stew.
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Can't you hear her?
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Rumbling like an earthquake through the crowded blocks of watts.
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Sizzling like the wind off the ancient coast of Ghana.
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Honking like the traffic symphony and the hot sauce streets of New York.
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Crashing onto the untamed sands of the people's beaches of Cuba.
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How long has this Jane, this breath taking
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Jayne Cortez been gone.
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Not long.
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Not long.
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In fact, she's back.
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Yeah.
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Back for seconds.
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A little more Armstrong Funk in the sunshine.
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Another helping of that spicy cesarean callaloo with a bit of red pepper poet mixed in.
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Another round of Big Mama Thornton blues brew, right bumblebee?
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Yeah.
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She's looking for a second slice of that wicked shit
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Guillén cooked up.
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Another bite of that African truth casserole Chano Pozo's serving from his conga.
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Very fine.
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Very fine.
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One more taste of the scatology's fiddle Ella's still slinging around the Savoy Ballroom.
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One more ride on V. Train this side of time before she takes it to her final destination.
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Have you seen her?
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Drinking the conjure woman's pot liquor straight out of the pot.
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Sashaying across the evening sky like a bouquet of black girls' smiles.
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Have you heard her?
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Toxic in her gut, gut bucket lullabies into the ears of desperate children, exhausted men, and outraged women.
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Sweeping the dust of corporate sponsored exploitation off the bandstand with her fire spitting lyrical jazz cleanup crew.
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Have you felt her rattling your bones with the daily news of the latest pro-democracy drone strike?
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Licking with sandpaper cat tongue kisses
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the numbed shell of cultural desensitization to violence we call paying the bills?
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Have you seen her?
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Have you seen her?
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How long, how long has our Jayne been gone?
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Not long.
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Not long.
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She's no farther away than the sound of her name and her hellified poetry ringing out of our long memory throats.
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If we act right, she'll be right back.
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Wow.
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That's just me trying to channel, uh, one of my champions, one of my heroes.
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And if you don't know, please go find out.
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Jayne Cortez.
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Um, I'm gonna continue, um, calling out some of my sister artists and inspirations and, and, you know, companions on this journey.
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Um, the amazing artist Alison Saar.
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Um, yes.
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Give it up for Alison.
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Yes.
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She designed, she sculpted this beautiful piece of work that, um, graces the cover of suddenly we.
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And, um, she calls this sculpture, which she makes, you know, she works a lot with found materials, and you can kind
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of imagine what she found by looking at this, um, but you might not be able to see what she named the sculpture from.
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It's called the, the piece is called Bluebird.
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My poem is called Perched.
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I am Black.
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Comely.
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A girl on the cusp of desire.
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My dangling toes take the rest, the rest of my body refuses.
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Spine upright.
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My pose proposes anticipation.
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I poise in copper colored tension, intent on manifesting my soul in the discouraging world.
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Under the rough eyes of others, I stiffen.
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If I must be hard, it will be as a tree alive with change.
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Inside me a love of beauty rises like sap sprouts from my scalp and stretches forth.
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I send out my song an aria blue and feathered and grow toward it.
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Choirs bear but soon to bud.
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I am Black and becoming.
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I don't think she's still here or maybe she is.
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Um, this poem, this next poem has an epigraph.
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From the Nikkiy Finney, the beloved Nikky Finney.
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Um, and, uh, I am reading this poem, um, you know, as a representative of the childless cat ladies.
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Nikky.
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Oh, I'm here.
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We're here.
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Um, Nikky, I love this, this, this line.
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She says, the things that I give birth to matter.
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The things that I give birth to, give birth to other things.
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The Blessings.
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I gave mine away, not all, but the greater portion, some would say.
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I gave away the ready claim to goodness, to purpose.
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I gave away Mary, Sarah, and Isis.
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I gave away necessity and invention.
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I gave away a whole holiday, but I kept Billie.
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I gave away the chance to try and fail to have it all.
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I gave away the one thing that makes some men pay.
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I gave away the pedestal.
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The bouquet.
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I gave away Nell Wright.
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But I kept Sula Peace.
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I gave away the fine tooth comb, but I kept the oyster knife.
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I gave away the first word, the new mouth.
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Uh, the new mouth forms.
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The easiest to parlay across so many languages.
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Escaping the maw, I gave away the power to hold and be held in sway, but I kept Cho Parton, Benny Chapman and Tomè.
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I gave away the Eve who left the garden that day, but kept the cool green, shady, fruitless, fruitful stay.
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The evening that did not fall away.
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Um, I, I think I wanna go to one new piece.
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This is, um, nerve wracking.
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Um, where did it go?
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Oh, here it is.
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Okay.
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Um, this piece, um, I get to do one more shout out to, um, a poet who, uh, means a lot to me.
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And, um, I think the only thing I'm gonna try to say to, to prepare you for what you're going to hear is
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just that, um, I think about language and there's this phrase, do people still say it in the nick of time?
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Like, I was like, what the heck is the nick of time?
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And then I started thinking about the word nick and the word time.
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Um, and just the concept.
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So here we go.
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This poem is called, um, Time: The Nick and the epigraph is from Dionne Brand.
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She says, what is in time?
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Everything and nothing.
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The ambulance, the apology, the wrinkle, the retrieval.
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Catastrophe averted, is still carried in the bloodstream, constricted heart, arteries, cellfuls of what
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of could-have-been collected and held out to pos, to community.
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Posterity.
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The chasing hounds, their toothy growling fury, even escaped, bites the imagination descended from danger, nips and holds
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the skin of the then to the now, a bloody fold pinned by an ivory clip.
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The nick of time, a mark borne and reborn, generation after generation, the time nicked, hours, days, years
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spent holding the line against deaths designated, designed, waiting for us,
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the nick marking the passage of the time of unfreedom on our bodies, passed down as the babies passed through the nick of time opening, bloody, between slick thighs.
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The rebirth of hope, of will, children stapled by bomb shards to their people's past, some far-too-late future
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branded as just in time, are nicked, unnicked into a world where they must steal back what belongs to them.
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Everything and nothing, the arrival, the acknowledgement, the reparations, the return.
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Um, I'm gonna just read two more.
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This one, I'm going back to read an old one just because, um, it doesn't actually shout out Harryette Mullen, but you know, I'm gonna shout out Harryette Mullen.
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So, um, I would call this the first poem I wrote under the influence of Harryette.
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You know, she's a drug, she's addictive.
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Um, this is called You Must Walk This Lonesome.
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Say hello to moon leads you into trees as thick as folk on Easter pews.
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Dark but ventured through amazing was blind but now fireflies, glittering, dangling from evergreens like Christmas oracles.
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Soon you meet the river bank down by the riverside.
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Water baptizes your feet.
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Moon bursts back in low yellow swing low sweet chariot of cheese shines on in the river.
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Cup hands and sip but never saw inside a peace be still.
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Mix in your tears.
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Moon distills distress like yours so nobody knows the trouble it causes.
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Pull up a log and sit until your empty is full.
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Your straight is wool.
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Your death is yule.
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Moonshine will do that.
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Barter with you.
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What you got for what you need.
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Draw from the river like it is well with my soul.
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Oh moon, you croon and home you go.
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Um, and I'm gonna read one more and sit down.
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Um, this poem is, uh, the final poem in Suddenly We.
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It is a poem that I hope to not have to read someday.
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Um, there's an epic, um, a dedication, you might say pour les deux mille plus Site-Mémorial du camp des Milles, um, which just means for the
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2000 and more, um, who were held in the, the Site-Mémorial, the memorial site of the camp, uh, in Les Milles.
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Les Milles is a city, a town in the south of France, and it also means the thousands.
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Les Milles.
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There is no poem unless, I, we can find the courage to speak.
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In the middle of a vacation in the south of France, a chance to visit a World War II detention center
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arises, dusty and bleak, just outside aix-en-provence, just past the scent of lavender, in an ancient heat.
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The first thing you see and the last thing you visit is a boxcar.
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You know what it means.
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It takes the same toll on the breath, the pulse, as the rusted shackles displayed in another damned museum.
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There are histories of torture preserved all around us.
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Formally officially with placards and institutional funding.
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Casually, quietly, unavoidably in the quality of a glance, the poverty of an existence, the demographics of a mall, a church, a prison.
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In a former tile factory, we learn again how anything can be misused, how anyone can be abused.
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A kiln is not a dormitory until it is.
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There.
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Here.
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Slept people who were too Jewish to be German, too German to be French, too despised and feared to
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be defended even by those who feared they, we, might soon be despised.
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If I now say Palestine, have I forgotten Auschwitz?
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If I say settlements, have I now forgotten camps?
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If I don't say Palestine, have I forgotten Elmina, Selma, Cape Town, Haiti?
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Must every place-name on earth be a shorthand for violence on a map of grief?
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Orlando,
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Charleston,
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Wounded Knee,
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Sharpeville,
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Gettysburg, Tiananmen Square,
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Gaza , Katyn, Plaza de Mayo, Soweto, Dominican Republic, Hiroshima, Srebrenica, Rwanda, Cambodia, Ankara, Adana, Odessa, Nanking.
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Yesterday and yesterday's yesterday,
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the planet pushing up sycamores and lavender, rice and plantains, fertilized with lead and blood,
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with rain from poisonous clouds and the dust that becomes of the dead.
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Adam, whose name means clay, was not baked in a kiln.
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Eve's name means life, implies the day that follows.
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Will tomorrow be a place we can name after something that grows?
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What is the proper use of a wall?
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There are so many histories buried in the space and silence around, within, these words.
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These lines make a poor but portable museum, a set of sketches, palimpsests, faint and painfully incomplete that
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map the territory of the human, with arrows pointing in every direction.
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Some leading from you, some leading to you.
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There is no poem unless you, we can find the courage to hear.
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Thank you.
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Love you poetry people.
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Love you.
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Love this next speaker, this next poet, this next artist, Niyi Osundare.
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Yay.
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Thank you very, very much.
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Um,
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about six o'clock this morning,
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I was woken up by a call from Nigeria.
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On the other side was my old teacher, 96 years young.
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Taught me 1967, 68 when I was in high school.
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Niyi how are you?
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I haven't seen you for a long time.
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I understand you are at so, so, so place and that so, so, so place is this.
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With him was my younger brother, a professor.
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Uh, and there were other people all around.
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Um, the point I'm trying to make is,
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this has been magical.
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Simply magical.
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My poetry has taken me to virtually all the continents in the world.
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I must say outside continental Africa I have never had an audience like this.
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It's, uh, it's amazing.
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There is no flattery in this.
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The positively conspiratorial relationship that's here, the communal voice, and as I said yesterday, the deep sound.
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Hmm, hmm hmm.
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Those things mean a lot.
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It was, uh, Barbara Christian, one of my favorite theorists who said, without response, art dies.
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And I add to it without an audience, this song with us.
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Um, this is really amazing.
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Just one more minute.
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This is not an event.
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It is a phenomenon, and I'm using phenomenon.
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Uh, not like a cliche.
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It's something that really means this kind of gathering is a type that goes beyond the here and now.
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I think this, the Furious Flower celebration, uh, should be more visible and more audible in continental Africa.
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It is important.
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Uh, my, my old teacher and the first Black African art to win the Nobel Prize, Wole Soyinka, it was
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who wrote an article about 60 years ago now, the common back cloth.
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He was talking about Blacks in Africa and our brothers and sisters in the diaspora.
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A couple of years, uh, ago I wrote something too where I called the Atlantic Ocean, a bowl of water.
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That is what it is.
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Um, events like this unite us and unites us also with the world.
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I want to say thank you very much to, um, Joanne Gabbing
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Lauren Alleyne, and my brother, uh, Dr. Gbenga Adesina uh, for making it possible for me to come.
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English is a very greedy language.
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I mean, been here now for about four days.
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It's been English, English, English.
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Isn't English tired really of panning this burden.
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I write in two languages at least.
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Yoruba my mother tongue.
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That's the one I was born with.
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That's the one I was raised in.
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And that's the one that dominates my thinking.
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English came to me through the classroom, the chalk chalkboard and the teacher's can.
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Now, um, it's important to say this.
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What have I been doing with these two languages, or what have these languages been doing with me?
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Uh, my M.A. and PhD thesis were based on this, what it means to think in one language and write in another.
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The pains and the pleasure usually come related to that.
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The idea of poetics and what I call differentiate aesthetics.
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Western, uh, poetics or western idea of poetics has really not been able to capture, uh, all the things we are doing with literature in, uh, in Africa.
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The point really is the poems, you'll be hearing based sound rather strange.
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Some cases because they are interface poems deliberately.
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Um, I write in Yoruba, I also write in English, but I also live and work and sleep in the interface
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between these two languages and the two cultures that produced them.
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In Yoruba, poetry is music.
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It's essentially oral, oríkì is the word.
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You can't say, emi yoo ka oríkì, I'm going to read oríkì, no.
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Read and poem do not colocate in, in, in, in Yoruba.
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It's mo fe korin oríkì, I want to chant oríkì.
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Mostly in Yoruba poetry is chant.
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It's, uh, an idea of that old, old communion between the mouth and the ear.
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This is why I'm going to start by asking you to join me here.
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There is, there was this lady who was very beautiful and every woman in the, every man in the kingdom wanted her to be his wife.
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It, the pressure was so much she decided to levitate.
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She went to the sky.
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When she got to the sky, she turned to the moon.
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This young man kept on pursuing her.
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She became a star, continued to pursue, to pursue her until eventually she evaporated into time.
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It has a song.
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You are going to join me in doing the song.
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My own will be need to translate.
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All you will join me in singing this.
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need to translate Can I have it?
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Translation
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needed.
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Invocations of the Word.
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In the Word was not the Beginning.
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In the Beginning was the Word.
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Unwind the wind.
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Give rapid legs to the crouching leaf; the horse of memory has galloped through clouds, through thunder, through roaring waters.
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Throw open the door of your eyes, throw open the door of your ears.
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Araba ponmbe ponmbe ponmbe.
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Araba ponmbe ponmbe ponmbe.
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The wind.
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The wind is word is the word is the egg from the, from the nest of a hawk and dove.
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Its shell is the sheath of anger's sword.
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Its yolk compostbed of bile and boon.
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The Word, the Word, is the woodpecker's beak, which rattles the jungle of silence.
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The cat's eye that pierces the garment of night.
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The Word, the Word, is the fearless symmetry of zebra heights, the fiery hooffall of eloquent horses.
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The Word, the Word, is the armpit of stone.
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The groin of nodding marble.
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The Word, the Word, is the madness of the moon.
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The canine fury of barking tides.
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The Word, the Word, is the milky teeth of coconut mountains.
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The joyful tears of dawn.
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Araba ponmbe ponmbe ponmbe.
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Araba ponmbe ponmbe ponmbe.
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I see the Word.
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Plumbing distant clouds for echoes, echoes, echoes, echoes, echoes, echoes, echoes, echoes of golden idioms.
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I see the Word shaving mountainheads with the razors of reason.
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I see the Word on the lips of the gun, animally red.
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I see the Word in parliaments of contending tongues.
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I see the Word with ears of joy, stalks of swaying rapture.
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I see the Word in the dream of a dream.
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The dream of the dream.
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The dream of the dream.
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The cloud which gathers the rain.
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The rain which unchains the earth.
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Abuubutan Eja okun.
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Abuubutan Eja osa.
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Adunnni lenu.
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Ma dunni lorun.
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Araba ponmbe ponmbe ponmbe.
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Araba ponmbe ponmbe ponmbe.
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Araba ponmbe ponmbe ponmbe.
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The Word, the Word, is the ashes of twilight.
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The rainbow of vagrant skies.
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The Word is rocks and roots, sand and stone, rust and dust, love and lust.
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The Word is the peeping window of heady tails.
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The vital valley of maiden hills.
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Araba ponmbe ponmbe ponmbe.
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Araba ponmbe ponmbe ponmbe.
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The Word is rain.
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The Word is dust.
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The Word is rain and dust.
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The Word is black.
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The Word is white.
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The Word is black and white.
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The Word is life.
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The Word is death.
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The Word is life and death.
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Araba ponmbe ponmbe ponmbe.
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Araba ponmbe ponmbe ponmbe.
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Give bony thoughts.
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The flesh of airy idioms.
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Let rounded laughters unknot the brow of wrinkled moments; scatter the Word in the valley of the moon.
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Let harvestsongs reap the plenitude of waiting proverbs.
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In the Beginning was not the Word.
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In the Word was the Beginning.
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Now, um.
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Among the Yoruba, the, the word so important.
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Actually, that's what give rise to this title.
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This is my mother's favorite saying in Yoruba, ẹyin ọrọ, the word is an egg.
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Hold it with care.
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The moment it drops, you cannot gather the pieces together.
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The word in, in flight, um, I'm talking about that.
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And also transformations.
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Uh, there's a short poem, awọn iyipada.
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Um,
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Transformations.
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Awọn iyipada.
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I stay very long in the river and I become a fish.
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With a herd made of coral and fins, which tamed the distance of below depth.
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I stay very long in the fish.
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I become a mountain with a mist, cradled, crest, and feet capitated by grass, which sweetens dawn breast with Jasmine magic.
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I stayed very long on the mountain and I become a bird
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with a net of
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polyglot straw and songs which stir the ears of slumbering forests.
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I stay very long with the bird and I become the road.
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With long, dusty eyes and limbs twining, twining, twining through the bramble like precocious pythons.
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I stay very long on the road.
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I become a segret lighted both ends by powerful gizards.
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Ash winged firefly on nights of muffled darkness.
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I stay very long with the segret and I become a clown with a wide painted face and a belly stuffed to the brim
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with rippling laughters.
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I stay very long with the clown, I become a sage, a sage with a twinkling beard and fables, which ply the yarn of grizzled moments.
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I stay very long in silence.
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I become the word.
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Talking about words and, uh, the power they have.
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Uh,
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words don't come easily to us.
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We are all writers.
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Uh, poets or listeners.
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Poets.
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2020 was a bad year in so many ways, not because now we have to say P.C., meaning post COVID or PC post COVID.
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So monumental temporarily.
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But that was the year of, uh, a young man that was choked to death.
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Um, I could not sleep for one week seeing that thing, that knee or that neck, um, and I thought I was going into depression.
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Then one night something said, do it, and I started scribbling and that's how I came about this poem.
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I Can't Breathe.
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Wrote it.
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And, uh, sent it away to, uh, a young brother who runs a, an internet platform.
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About two hours later, called me and said thousands of people have visited this said.
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I think within one month of writing, it was translated into French and then Spanish.
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I Can't Breathe.
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This is the first time I'll be reading the entire thing.
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Uh, each time I've tried to read it, I've literally choked up.
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I Can't Breathe.
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Uh, I call it Episodic Variations on the Ripples of a Primal scream.
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I
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Can't Breathe.
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Need translation.
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I can't breathe.
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I can't breathe.
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I can't bre.
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I can't, I can't,
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I...
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Year 2020.
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Black Lives Matter.
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Year 1965.
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I am a man.
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Two.
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There are countless ways of lynching without a rope.
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Three.
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Uh, the casualties were fewer than we had expected.
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10 persons and 1000 Negroes.
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For every black in college, there are hundred more in prison.
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So many centuries on, America still has a "Negro Problem."
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My skin is my sin, sings bluesman with the wailing strings, my very life is an underlying condition for countless afflictions.
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And the media Sage responds: Racism is America's original sin violence, it's an alienable companion.
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There is a common crime in town: it is called Breathing While Black BWB.
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Mr. George Floyd committed two cardinal crimes: he was Black.
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He was big.
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Black Lives Matter.
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Black Life Martyrs.
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And asked Louis Armstrong, the Smiling Trumpetman: what did I do to be so black and
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blue?
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Black Lives Matter.
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Black Life Martyrs.
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Their voices rise from their untimely graves.
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Amadu Diallo.
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Bong.
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Eric Garner, Eric Garner, Eric Garner, Eric Garner.
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Bong.
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Michael Brown.
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Bong.
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Tamir Rice.
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Bong.
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Walter Scott.
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Bong.
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Freddie Gray.
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Bong.
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Botham Jean.
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Bong.
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Breanna Taylor, Breanna Taylor, Breanna Taylor.
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Bong.
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Philando Castille.
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Bong.
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Trayvon Martin, Trayvon Martin, Trayvon Martin.
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Bong.
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Ahmaud Arbery.
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Bong.
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George, George, George Floyd.
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Bong.
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To be and not to be, to wallow in want in the sea of wealth, to shout and not be heard, to stand and not be seen.
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To sow and never to reap, to live all your life below the Law.
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To be stopped and frisked, to be stopped and frisked, to be stopped and frisked, to be stopped and frisked,
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to be stopped and to be told countless times, hey, to forgive and then forget.
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Yes sir. Yes ma'am.
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Put them at ease with your Negro smile.
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Your low, low bow and your high regard.
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The cool facade is your saving grace.
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An angry Black man is as good as dead.
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9 1 1 9 1 1 9 1 1. Hey, my name is Sue calling you from, uh, from my car in City Park.
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There is a big black male around whose big, dark
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shadow is menace to my side.
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Freedom.
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Please send a cop send a cop.
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Please send a cop.
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My life is at risk.
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Choke-hold.
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Choke-hold, stranglehold and dash and dangle.
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400 years of knee-on-neck.
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Well, our police know their oath: to serve and to protect.
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Black Lives Matter.
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Black Life Martyrs.
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Asked Louis Armstrong, the smiling trumpetman: what did I do to be so black and
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blue?
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Memory is not just a trope, uh, in my work, it's something that persists me everywhere.
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Uh, I go produce this because it's of memory.
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Memory and the faculty of remembrance.
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It's, it's one thing to have, memory it's very important, but memory is residual.
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What calls it into active, uh, uh, active operation is remembrance.
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It's terrible when people lose both, you know?
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So I'm asking, uh, basically here, no crime is new as we say in Yoruba.
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Um, what do you do to in any goat that you weep countless time for a repeated offense?
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Africa has suffered and is still suffering.
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Um, um, in 1898, 1898, 1897, there was a British Retaliatory Expedition against the kingdom of Benin.
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Benin at that time was one of the flourishing areas, what is now Nigeria and Portuguese visitors earlier had
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described that city, that Benin city itself as more advanced than some of the ones they saw in Portugal or whatever.
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So it and art was the center, the spiritual and artistic center of that kingdom.
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In fact, the king had people who made, uh, artifacts.
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The British army went into the palace and took many, many of the, uh, artworks away.
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One of the last, uh, correspondences I had before heading for here came from Switzerland.
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Um, now there is an ex exhibition going on, uh, in Switzerland.
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Now.
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There was a poem I wrote, um, about one of these artifacts, the face of Co India.
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In 1997,
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1977, there was a festival of Black arts and, uh, and culture, my God, from different parts of the, of the Black world.
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And also indigenous people like the Maori, Australia, New Zealand, and, uh, indigenous people, uh, in the US here, they, they were all in Lagos.
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Now, before that, the Nigerian government wanted to use that mask as the symbol, the spiritual center of the gathering of Black people.
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The British government said, no, give us.
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He said, no.
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What's the reason?
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We are not sure it'll be safe, because we, we were asking them to lend descent to us.
1:10:32
Uh, diplomatic shuttle kinds of things happened at, at a point they said they were afraid it might be damaged by humidity.
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It came from that humidity.
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So eventually the Nigerian government had to commission somebody to make an another.
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Uh, another mask.
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Uh, what do you call this?
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So there is a short poem here titled Africa's Memory.
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Africa's Memory.
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I ask for Oluyenyetuye bronze of Ife.
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The moon says it is in Bonn.
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I ask for Ogidigbonyingbonyin mask of Benin.
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The moon says it is in London.
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I ask for the Dinkowawa stool of Ashanti.
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The moon says it's in Paris.
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I ask for Togongorewa bust of Zimbabwe.
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The moon says it is in, in New York.
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I ask, I ask, I ask, I ask for the memory of Africa.
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The seasons say it is blowing in the wind.
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The hunchback cannot hide his burden.
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I'm not leaving yet.
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No, no, no.
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So, um,
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I want to say thank you very much again and, uh, in 10 years time when this will be taking place, I hope I will be there.
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To come and dance and to come and listen to good poetry.
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Thank you.
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Yes.
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My colleague here, great poet and uh, some things really significant.
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Well, alumnis alumni of the same University, York University in Toronto.
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That's right.
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I'm happy to, uh, introduce Ms. Lubrin.
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Thank you.
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Yay.
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All right.
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Furious flower.
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You are beauty and bounty.
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You fire, right.
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So are you boo.
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Thank you so much, Lauren and Dr. Gabbin and everyone who has touched this momentous gathering in any way at all.
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This will remain one of the great honors of my life.
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I am going to read from a long poem, book length poem called The World After Rain.
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And uh, Niyi said the word is rain in one of his poems just now.
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It is a poem that exists for, to, and because of my mother.
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And I dedicate it to those who mother everywhere.
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I hold the mothers of Haiti and Palestine and Congo and Ukraine and Sudan, mothers in every single captive zone, anywhere.
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Alive again under the red umbrella of the world.
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Days I say to endings, exhaust all the living things sideways to nothing.
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Such worlds to report to a dying friend, father, or brother, or water, mother.
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What to know now, heaped life.
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Coming again to this timetable of disproving globes, down and up under the blue umbrella of the world.
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Singers still singing after the rain.
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For dears, you look like life, fibers on revived surfaces.
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And all this chirping, in between our easy hearts, we resemble first chances.
1:15:52
The smoke strong ghost polishing love with sharp embraces, with cleft hands softening the burning tissue of the mouth.
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Gorging on exits that since our beginning would not speak of end here in my embrace.
1:16:10
Until your backbones crack, the mind can teach the hand to rattle open new jaws for counting days when what is left in this distance between two startling eyes
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is the traffic of our watching slowing us bluing near rooms for atmospheric friends responsible to the haze.
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Who, but no one could, could know that this hand, like mercury is mine.
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In this closing of wooden lids and lightning bolts, above five indexes of eyes preserved in acid rains.
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Of a ghost whistling for the tea kettle fore grounding us in this time of roads closed for walking the neon afternoons,
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the silver light for rheumatic walking to tanks of wastewater to a cave of miracles.
1:17:02
Where doctors say to me, this accessible parking permit is temporary.
1:17:07
Two years must be enough.
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Estimate a complete math for your someone's peculiar drowning.
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Today, mother ever rally five brimming years from the blue black SOS held above the weeds gather me and the child you work and reappear.
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While we are distance seeking distance, not as you say, while we are opened, keeping nothing for ourselves,.
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Not the sky
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at this strange depth, not a hundred thousand others, not the sea wall, part water part blade between two
1:17:44
continents this high above our girlhood, not yet to our correct refuge to rum.
1:17:51
Refusing to soak your bread.
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Not in this nest, your braided grass.
1:17:56
My joke, but my groan of water tinting the reservoir.
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But this fitness trembling at the root of all life.
1:18:06
But your fever for today's light into itself.
1:18:10
It is time studied of seed like attention to the country feeding each morning on the battery powered thinker who will live longer even than time.
1:18:21
Feeding on the backroom villages made endlessly to bend from the metal hulls of cold mouthes, the silver freight of your dying trails
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the length of any season's tax slips, of any decades running birth.
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Our dark heads clearing the egg yolk rain.
1:18:38
Weed tumbling weed catching us, or any of our recent flares mid bow.
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To anyone who comes to speak us out of air.
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The hot air astonished too that we do not log wild plans for each other's future.
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Here cleanly lies my bluest world.
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Wishing you just any good unblemished year a thousand times before a market lie might splice us from this world of bloodied
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hands, all these charred feet marching away from us, we admire anybody's guess.
1:19:12
A no endured down any street swelled before, below behind who'd left your bowel in a knot, and then asked, well, why aren't you eating?
1:19:23
Baffled by fear, by speech, by bubble, bonded with bile.
1:19:28
We'll take any street now.
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Queen Street, Bathurst Street, Bridge Street, Dominica 1984.
1:19:35
For the fevered boys circa 1914.
1:19:38
These names two quick for our conjoined life.
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These expressions too unfortunate for any street or any other country.
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Before your life
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nowadays, bluer than earth resounds in me.
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It is time, yes, times cannot so we cannot explain the world.
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Name the same as marrow beaten to blue.
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Bones beyond cracking, circling the belly of the earth.
1:20:03
Our voices for the whole of you, shatter the glass windows of unrelenting heated houses.
1:20:09
If mother describes the world, a tumor.
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Yes.
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The broad and flat elements of borders.
1:20:17
Yes.
1:20:18
Like zodiacs?
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Yes.
1:20:20
Mirage of a late world slung from tractor factories.
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Yes.
1:20:25
Still hidden from the door.
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A warbler is undone by singing today.
1:20:30
Yes.
1:20:31
Signal Hill cast trees.
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Bagatelle.
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Are we forgeries until we are foregone?
1:20:37
We sudden and halved.
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Receding into flashes at the bus stop.
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Before formalin, before law, before order, before expertise.
1:20:48
It is a some time-ish time for the animals.
1:20:51
Crossed by invisible detachment from even legs.
1:20:54
So high up.
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As are the white ships blinking ahead, ahead of rosettes for the hungry.
1:21:01
Six shrubs of sea grass.
1:21:03
Books we tell ourselves.
1:21:06
A rock, a re-watering hole, flat officers of high ranks, and mother pleading with a cloth bundled on her waist.
1:21:14
Who might know, know where the world deepens
1:21:17
its temper of salted organs families shared for balance and your hands in the midst of washing.
1:21:25
My mother says, look how we are astonished.
1:21:28
By the jails, I say by the floors holding our reflections.
1:21:32
Knowing enough medicine enough to call the burning world back to love.
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Yes!
1:21:41
It is time.
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It is time harvesting hit and runs and mother hardening the ritual of doubtless love.
1:21:52
The time of houses unlit by grieving SOS's.
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The room of my one life is full of the lights gone out.
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In spite of all my protest, if I outline myself in nothing, now a time traveling letter to a daughter, is it that I have known the map, the maker
1:22:10
of it, the doors, the maker of them, and yet re-lettered near the last of time your trembling so endless.
1:22:19
Your minutes dispensed from the drugstore.
1:22:23
It is that I am static, stunned without a shovel.
1:22:27
In a time of damp soil, flooded deserts, the river that recollects us.
1:22:33
It is time again for rivers wounding down the vital pulse of undoing death.
1:22:39
You arrive on a piece of paper and ancient as rice, my nash of water meets your wood
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smoke.
1:22:46
Your oven time.
1:22:47
Given more honest eyes, I would find more daylight to rest an ending from nights that do not end with nothing.
1:22:55
With exits or blood thinning into air.
1:22:58
Downloading strokes into this street between mothers' breasts.
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Mothers bending.
1:23:04
Entering this bare room of astonishment is my form of worship.
1:23:08
With vowels like E that divides break, ending love, bookend and exile, beginning end, and everything.
1:23:18
She says, morning to everyone.
1:23:20
Give me your circles.
1:23:22
Promises for return.
1:23:23
Spells against conductors, against radiation.
1:23:27
This wind, you know, conducts a phrase against my childish limits again to survive.
1:23:33
Monosyllabic as life.
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My mother says, come by heart.
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And I watched someone hoard these few wisdoms with which like death, I am the last to leave the room.
1:23:49
It is time I run, I run, I run one day into the next, into the time of games.
1:23:54
This gameness of homes on the graveyards of origins and this eagerness of winter might kill me in this town.
1:24:02
Even if you say to drunkards drive one day and we danger north, small and already with the silences of any Tuesday or
1:24:09
Thursday telescope days for farming for leavening flour with our sandstone life.
1:24:16
With cattle now grazing the roadside fat logs for my swift melancholia.
1:24:22
Raining in my right hand and my mother's over and over.
1:24:26
We are old as turtles.
1:24:28
Bone pooled, pooled in a firmament house.
1:24:31
She takes an hour from my hand in the middle of math class.
1:24:34
She doubles the night sawing with white light over and over.
1:24:39
A shadow under her eyes screen intolerable words for growth the body harbors even bled stars, even poison.
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Both eyes
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on the right.
1:24:50
A future shore.
1:24:52
All I'll remember of my face is a pendulum, a thread of light exposed to their dock before we come aware, I am the living cost.
1:25:02
A coming dog of war.
1:25:03
Devouring whole alphabets from fleshly regions of the sky.
1:25:08
In this submerged stretch for once even the villages are experimental.
1:25:13
And this is no village without vergers, clung to marsh.
1:25:17
Taking lessons from stillbirths.
1:25:19
Your peace green glass inherits mornings.
1:25:22
I meet in the mouth, formed coral measuring our singed world.
1:25:27
Wiseburn letters to the Gorgonian sea fan come yield one hour to a skeleton of this world.
1:25:33
What sulfonic grid for Haiti ranges my envy of reefs.
1:25:38
Where must I be this flare before that poet kills the moon for goodness?
1:25:43
Before our walk the length of an evening say so photographed between living and barely awake.
1:25:49
We could dance.
1:25:51
The scent of our open hearts blanketing, the small village.
1:25:55
Of all these singing things you bring to your lips.
1:25:59
Scuffling now.
1:26:00
Mother, I am dense, damp, grassland.
1:26:05
Blackened time throughout the occasion of ceasefire or paper clay.
1:26:10
Or how could I refuse peace the taste of unlovable hand clapping.
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Yeah.
1:26:16
My mouth is a stone box.
1:26:18
It does trap fault.
1:26:20
The trouble of tobacco leaves opening over 10 days only for a water balloon clown to smear lifeless lips
1:26:27
crosswise on my wrinkled eyelids three decades up so.
1:26:32
At least my girl you've carried worlds in your voice.
1:26:36
All of them from atrium to ventricle without weeping for me, your starlet humalog.
1:26:41
Dreamed in the later afternoon of this hospital chart pressed to my weak artery.
1:26:48
Working the air black from my devotion to clay is this, these bones no usage, bones to wait for all owning to seize.
1:26:57
Our connotations
1:26:58
profane as fists colliding glass.
1:27:01
Ransacked cafes and wine is bloodening my ball and slow as the night, we lift ourself from day.
1:27:09
Soft against the things I will not say, like my name.
1:27:13
A gate swung wide from your ribs.
1:27:16
I demand more medicine for your footnotes.
1:27:20
You are single toothed time.
1:27:22
And who could make any charge against what the sketch hatchers might withstand?
1:27:28
Nobody eats anymore.
1:27:30
Your one good tooth leaks from a skeleton mouth on stage.
1:27:35
Your long fallen tate nursing me.
1:27:38
But I am no collapsed dream as yeyo at the gate where your great world must leap into my arms.
1:27:45
I am wrapped.
1:27:47
I am raw and slight.
1:27:48
Temporary, like the brown map of our lives barred on our foreheads or the paintless mouth you wear today.
1:27:56
So call for this city to charge an hour into our comprises.
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To charge and change no one.
1:28:02
I leave with this voir call of the cabazon dinosaurs.
1:28:07
I know little of the impatience each of our affirmations embargoes.
1:28:12
And what comes?
1:28:13
No fiddle to offer even a slight note, I alarm.
1:28:17
Notes to fill the room.
1:28:19
Two centuries
1:28:20
you know, before your verse astonishes the crowd.
1:28:24
I am keeping time mama the time of stop signs and swarms, or learning to be nevertheless transparent as a wall.
1:28:32
Here we've left salt at every threshold.
1:28:36
Cells dividing the loyalties of each word we hold abrupt in the presence of copied time, of poisoned mandible.
1:28:44
The open bar of embarrassing questions.
1:28:47
There's no ambition more skeletal than this heart, leaping, leaping like a toad in our chest.
1:28:53
Besides I detect bargains, mother, and you must come again to this howling.
1:29:00
Will an ounce of honey do, neighbor?
1:29:03
A piece of bread for hungry death, my dear?
1:29:07
Say the minty stillness of a Monday afternoon, on second thought, what if life verves towards the heart and stops?
1:29:23
Thank you.
1:29:37
My thanks.
1:29:37
Thank you very much.
1:29:39
Everybody knows that all the waters of the earth parts for Patricia Smith.
1:30:10
Thank you.
1:30:10
Thank you, thank you, thank you.
1:30:12
One of the most beautiful things about Furious Flower is discovering voices you did not know.
1:30:19
Uh, that was otherworldly.
1:30:21
That was so, so beautiful.
1:30:24
Um, Joanne, you are forever changing the landscape of not Black poetry, but poetry.
1:30:33
And Lauren, you've come a long way from my, my dance partner and drinking buddy.
1:30:41
But, but, but this will be a legendary triumph.
1:30:46
This is, uh, there's nothing like this.
1:30:49
Um, I just had a, a, a wonderful, wonderful, uh, panel today about persona, and I wanted to read, I tried to find a short persona to dedicate to the
1:31:02
people who were in that, uh, panel, the attendees, because we had about six or seven hours more that we could have done.
1:31:11
Um, I watch a lot of bad movies, and this poem was, um, Jason and the Argon, not Jason and the Argonauts, uh, what's the other one?
1:31:27
I can't remember it now.
1:31:30
Clash of the Titans.
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Clash, Clash of the Titans.
1:31:34
Not the new one, not the new one, but the one with the fighting skeletons and all that stuff.
1:31:39
You know, when you're getting ready for work and you see it and you go, I'm not going today.
1:31:42
I gotta see this.
1:31:45
Thank you, Dante.
1:31:47
Uh, but it was a, it was the scene with Medusa and I grew up really, uh, watching a, uh, reading a lot of mythology.
1:31:54
And I said, oh, wait a minute, what made Medusa Medusa?
1:31:57
And then I looked it up and I realized that like a lot of us, she messed up by making love to the wrong man.
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And,
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and she made love to Poseidon in Athena's temple.
1:32:08
And Athena was like, oh, no, you didn't.
1:32:10
Um, so, uh, Athena, you know, Athena said, I'm going to, uh, every time you look at a man you're gonna turn to, to, uh, they're gonna turn to stone and your head.
1:32:24
Um, so this is a, a poem in, uh, Medusa's voice as her body is going through these changes.
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Poseidon was easier than most.
1:32:37
He calls himself a god, but he fell beneath my fingers, with more shaking than any mortal.
1:32:45
He wept when my robe fell from my shoulders.
1:32:49
I made him bend his back for me, listened to his screams
1:32:53
break like waves.
1:32:55
We defiled that temple the way it should be defiled, squirming and bucking our way from corner to corner.
1:33:02
You know, the bitch goddess probably got a real kick out of that.
1:33:06
: That's right.
1:33:07
I'm sure I'll be hearing from her.
1:33:11
She'll give me nightmares for a week or so; that I can handle.
1:33:14
Or she'll turn the water in my well into blood;
1:33:16
I'll scream when I see it, and that'll be that.
1:33:19
Maybe my first child will be born with a head of a fish.
1:33:23
I'm not even sure it was worth it, Poseidon pounding away at me like a madman, losing his
1:33:29
immortal mind because of the way my copper skin swells in moonlight.
1:33:34
Now my arms smoke and itch.
1:33:37
Hard scales are rising on my wrists like armor.
1:33:41
Come on Athena, he was just another lay and not a particularly good one at that, even though he can spit steam from his fingers.
1:33:49
I won't touch him again.
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Promise.
1:33:52
And we didn't mean to drop to our knees in your temple, but our bodies were so hot and misaligned.
1:33:59
It's not every day a gal gets the sample a god, you know that.
1:34:03
Why are you being so rough on me?
1:34:05
I feel my eyes twisting, the lids crusting over and boiling, the pupils glowing like red coals.
1:34:12
Athena, woman to woman, could you have resisted him?
1:34:17
Would you have been able to wait for the proper place, the right moment, to jump those immortal bones?
1:34:26
Now my feet are tangled with hair, my ears are gone.
1:34:30
My back is curving and my lips have grown numb.
1:34:34
My garden boy just shattered at my feet.
1:34:39
Damnit, Athena, take away my father's gold.
1:34:42
Send me away to live with lepers.
1:34:44
Give me a pimple or two.
1:34:48
But my face.
1:34:49
To have men never again gaze at my face, growing stupid in anticipation of that first touch,
1:34:56
how can any woman live like that?
1:34:59
How can I watch their warm bodies turn to rock when their only sin was desiring me?
1:35:06
They just want to see me sweat.
1:35:08
They just want to touch my face and run their fingers through my...
1:35:15
my hair.
1:35:18
Is it moving?
1:35:29
Thank you.
1:35:31
Thank you.
1:35:33
Thank you.
1:35:37
Thank you very much.
1:35:38
Uh, also.
1:35:40
One of the other things that came up in workshop, uh, I did say that there wasn't a poem that I wouldn't at least attempt to write now.
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And, um, shame is powerful.
1:35:55
Uh, you've all been in those conversations where people are talking about not only what they're doing, but what their families are doing.
1:36:03
And uh, and sometimes those are lies, but you don't know.
1:36:08
Um, so when your son was touring Europe with his jazz band, my son was in jail.
1:36:15
And instead of saying that, or saying some version of that, I would just back away from the conversation.
1:36:22
So this poem is called, but the phone rings sometimes.
1:36:28
One.
1:36:30
I have to decide to answer the phone.
1:36:33
When I click to pick up
1:36:35
this is the way it goes.
1:36:37
There's that blip of echoed air and I say, hello?
1:36:41
Hello?
1:36:43
Before his new mama, disembodied white female, middle American, all purpose monotone informs me that I
1:36:50
have a collect call from an inmate of the Middlesex House of Corrections.
1:36:56
And in the silence left open for his name, my son barks Damon.
1:37:01
Gravel and guttural and studied badass and oh, I realize blind walking into what now passes for ritual, it's just my son again.
1:37:11
His cage gracelessly unlatched so that he can mumble temporarily reach into another air and tell me that his cellmate plans to kill him in his sleep.
1:37:23
Then I'm just another drooped mama in a ceaseless snaking line.
1:37:27
Summoning my cinematic coup.
1:37:29
Lately it seems the child is always, always about to be murdered.
1:37:34
Only seconds later I'm being treated to a blow by blow chronicle of the shaving of his head and the sloppy gouge
1:37:41
when the distracted barber's razor cut deep and Mama ha ha there was blood everywhere, but it look all right now.
1:37:48
Wait til you see I'm baldheaded.
1:37:51
In the next breath,
1:37:53
I'm scared, Mama.
1:37:55
I'm sick.
1:37:56
I cough all night.
1:37:58
Then as if he hadn't just swift whispered that weakness, he swifts to a sputter of jailhouse legalese bringing me up to date on his creaky version of hope.
1:38:08
Since I'd never been in jail before and since I've been staying outta trouble in here and since I've been doing everything they say and since it wasn't my gun.
1:38:15
But does it matter what grace the system grants if he's eating well or wrong, if the sentence runs together atop on one another, if he's crazy about his Mama,
1:38:25
because when dark drops and my son can no longer fight sleep, a man savagely focused will arc over him hefting a sock, swollen with dead D batteries.
1:38:35
Again, because of the dozens of times he swears it's about to happen
1:38:39
I've become an expert at visioning my son's already nicked skull collapsing and slick with itself.
1:38:46
200 miles away I wince and gamely wear his wound.
1:38:52
Two.
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There's a picture of Damon snapped over 20 years ago when he was two.
1:38:58
It's black and white, just one unkempt moment in the life of a kid, a snap, only a mother craving, an unburdened memory could love.
1:39:06
His gray sweatsuit is caked with grime, his crown impossibly kinked.
1:39:11
Staring at the photo, I long to plunge my hands into those raucous naps.
1:39:15
Kiss his nose and scoop his resisting wriggle into my arms to snort that rusty meld of sugar and funk.
1:39:22
A voice interrupts Ma. Ma. It is 20 years later, again.
1:39:30
I should never have picked up the phone.
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Three.
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I can get in my car and drive toward him.
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Filling three highway hours with Motown's, begging men, brown liquor, Aretha songs in those damned, insistent pictures of my boy, the way he used to be.
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Dead, deadpan jokester, giggling gum cracker stupefied by rockets and girls.
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Then without mercy, he sprouts upward.
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Dons cavernous denims.
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Stows away screw top wine and morphs into OG cocked cannon, baby maker, rhyme buster.
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Lemming, lemming, lemming, lemming, lemming.
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That last picture, the one of him I hate the most, stays with me the longest.
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There's the grasping whiner who really needs canteen money, but never thanks me for raising his 4-year-old daughter.
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He's the single syllable grunt, head scarred, grossly swollen from prison workouts, who I avoid mentioning to
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friends whose sons are waving are are waving grad school acceptance letters or touring France with their jazz bands.
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The most I will let on, he's in Boston on his own.
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I don't say he's locked up, but the phone rings sometime.
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Four.
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The waiting rooms are always too hot.
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I don't lift my eyes often but when I do, I see faces that mirror my own.
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Our whole body sigh and sigh.
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We are in sweatshirts and jeans.
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Graying hair pulled back, eyes straight ahead.
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Waiting for our sons on the fresh air side of bulletproof glass.
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A buzzer sounds, and a door slides open for the strange parade.
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They shuffle as if shackled by boredom, plump, and sinew swabbed in jumpsuits, the color of storm.
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They are missing molars, sutton bellies, downcast gaze, gang love scorched into biceps, numbed and innocent, numbed and guilty.
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They stream in scanning the drab room for Mama or bae or my dear, or maybe somebody, anybody from the block, somebody who remembers them free.
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Like toddlers they hug awkwardly check out who else has come to see who else.
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Slyly size up their tribe and greedily eye the vending machines, broken and bulging with poisons.
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I scour faces.
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Wonder if my son's homicidal, homicidal cellmate has allowed him dawn.
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And then there he is.
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Damon damn him
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serves up that grin, guaranteed to slap my heart open.
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He sputters a few words.
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See how big my arms are getting then shuts to a silence waiting for Mama to come through.
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Mutter a flimsy bandage.
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Make it all better.
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Looking down the long sorrowful row, I see that expected, hush repeated and repeated.
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All those mothers wanting desperately to be there, but wishing they hadn't come.
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If only we'd stayed home listening to the phone ring and ring and not picking up.
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We could just keep staring out of our own jails into an unbending dark, wallowing in blue, waiting for our sons to rise.
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Thank you.
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Thank you very much.
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Oh, you're welcome.
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Thank you.
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I have, uh, one more poem.
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This, this is new, new, new, new.
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New.
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Uh, this is a poem that found its beginning and breath in yet another wisdom uttered by Kwame Dawes.
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And it's for everyone here, the army of everyone here.
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I cannot claim success un unless I am a member of this army.
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This tenacious regiment, riotous and knuckled, its chaos versed in lyric its skin a million jubilant revisions of ash and shea.
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We are uniformed in bellowing purple, nutmeg, unraveled silk.
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We are aunties with sick fluid, swollen ankles, and shadow boxes crammed with much syllabled church fans.
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The doors of the Apostolic Faith Church Body of Jesus Christ of the Newborn Assembly yawn open for
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us, but the swastika doors of the Bethlehem Fire Baptized Holiness Church of God of the Americas do not.
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We are uniformed and dusty Dr. Watt choir robes and spittles of organ, uniformed in the gorgeous reversed verbs
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of each other's arms in the sloppily plucked skin of southern suppers.
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Uniformed and bald and spiraling
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dread in upshoot.
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Uniformed in pelts of snatched wigs.
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Uniformed in Cliftons and Finney's and helmets forged from dropped mics.
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Uniformed in robes, dipped in the dye of blue Terrance.
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In crinkly, neon wire and ribbon.
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Uniformed in the resounding silver clang and brutal flash of Malika Booker and damn skippy we are armed.
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We are spewing slant.
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We are ready for a particular kind of war.
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Success is not success unless I am a member of this army, this legion that insists that it is every other reason for red.
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This army astonished by the wide allowed exhortation that if we learn nothing else, we must learn to kill.
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We are flattered but wholly impressed, unimpressed by the ceaseless gifting of motive and ammunition.
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The unassuming whales that sprout trigger and shrapnel.
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The wide allowed insistence that if we learn nothing else, we must learn to be killed.
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To lie back languid, google eye, while our stanzas are critiqued dust, while the glaring white ring of workshop urges that the name Jamal
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be explained, that the chalk outline, excuse me, where is the poem's chalk outline be moved to the first line.
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Know the title and the poem, or the bop, or the shovel or the jazz or whatever you people call your life stories nowadays concludes with the
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thrilling and inevitable gold tooth unleashed, snot, quaint, double negative, and wail of a husbandless mother.
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I could not claim success unless I am a member of this army.
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This repeated and repeated answer to the violence laid upon us, this army that is spine and backhand slapped and the pained
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ghost grimace from a daguerreotype of all our fathers hung just crooked enough and nailed face down in this country's museum.
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We are the most hilarious cohort.
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An army utterly suspicious of history.
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Our hefted flag sewn raucously of archive.
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Success is not success until we have mastered the march.
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The dripping hip of the drill.
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The dark scarlet delta dirt of the drum line.
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To dance with us your religion must be oil.
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Primed for conflict, we march exclusively in storm straight through unsparing systems of weather in stressed formation, suffering
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rains quick silver trickle down our shut faces.
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Our nappy crowns all a glitter with God spit.
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Our uniforms mashed to us with God spit.
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We are sanctified in the sloshing of God spit.
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We march straight down the Glory Boulevard straight through the gap in Mo Brown's smile while Private Gay, while Private
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Gay his band two knots loosening with sun sweat, sprinkle seeds that scream to green growing our path before us.
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We are march rent party slow drag and chi town stomp step and twisted in Rita's tango.
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Watch us barracuda and black bottom in delectable tandem.
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We march, I love the Lord He heard my cry.
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We marched Saturday morning chitin in the assembly line.
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Our rations are scrubbed to stank and doused with unnamable heat.
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We swivel as one.
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Hold my hand and help me cry.
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Hold my hand and help me cry.
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Witnessing until I die.
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We don't know what we've been told.
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Writing alone can numb your soul.
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We swivel as one down Jefferson Street and back up Washington Lane down to Madison Crossing and Adams Street
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across Eisenhower Expressway and Kennedy Boulevard all the way up Van Buren.
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We march down MLK Boulevard and MLK Boulevard and MLK Boulevard down all the MLK boulevards with their
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scully stands and leaning wing shacks and puddles of iridescent gas.
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We don't know.
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We don't know, but we marched with the boulder thighs of nessy because it is not just summer somewhere we sing.
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But we don't sing that.
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We sing Willie Dixon's Grammy Award because that thin thread had to hold all that shatter together.
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We sing Smokey and Levi and LL Cool J hard as hell.
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We sing a bomb harmony with parts for four Birmingham girls.
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We sing cosmic slop and flashlight in my love must be a kind of blind love.
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I can't see anyone but you.
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We don't sing proper.
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We sing I ams like a backless dress on an unwashed woman.
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We sing.
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We sing the planet's Aisha Moon and Venus.
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We sing.
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We sing the pudgy overflow in Aretha's mirror.
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We sing Dante's slap of his winning bid, his bid with hand.
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I cannot claim success until I am a soldier within the scanned prayer of your soldier bodies.
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Until we share sinew, sinew and gush.
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Until we snort weep because too much anguish will not stop it's happening and there's never enough time to rhyme it.
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I cannot claim success until we learn together what a bitch happiness can be.
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How bladed its edges are, how sometimes it's an unleashing to bleed.
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And notice that the first mentioning of blood is also a mentioning of joy.
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I cannot claim success until we, the final victims of an insane grace, the silliest, most muscled and musical cousins upon cousins.
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Until each soldier has wearied and fallen for a final time, until we're laid to rest beneath the landscape we have worn dim with our marching.
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Above us, the rooting of blooms will be unquestioned.
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Everything will be a window letting in light.
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They will wallow in Camilla Aleisha Boone light.
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The flowers that grow will begin their own outlines.
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They will slip fluid in hue, watercoloring their own little lives.
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When our joint souls claw up to the soil surface, when our voltas and brash dactyl sparkle the dirt, the flowers will flood neon.
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They will try on new teeth, they will realize their own regiment.
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Wow.
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They mourn.
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Each releasing a soldier's name to the wind.
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And there will be forever a need for armies.
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Knowing this, the flowers are not merely irritated.
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They are furious.
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Thank you.
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Thank you.
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Thank you.
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Thank you.
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Thank you very much.
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Thank
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you.
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Thank you.
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Bless.
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Bless you all.
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And love
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you all.
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Thank you.
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Um, and now.
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Thank you.
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Thank you.
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Thank you all so much.
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Love you.
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Love you.
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Um, and now, um, the obsessive liver of light, the hoarder of all light, um, the window that opens onto doors.
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And most importantly, the lover of Lorna.
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Mr. The Commander.
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Yes.
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I'm sorry.
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Kwame Dawes.
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Uh, Patricia Smith.
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Oh, good.
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You know,
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I was just walking over there in the lobby a little bit ago, and I see, you know I just, in the back there, I see Patricia like, tap and tap and tap.
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And I said, what you doing Patricia?
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She said, I'm working on something.
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That woman is serious.
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So this is what you were doing.
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That's beautiful.
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Write my name.
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Write my name up there.
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Write my name.
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Write my name up there.
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Yes if I touch my finger on the golden pen.
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The golden pen?
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Yes, the golden pen.
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If I touch my finger on golden pen and write my name up there.
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A song for poets.
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So thank you Joanne.
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Thank you Lauren.
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And I appreciate especially the note you sent me, asking me to limit my comments to,
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to, um,
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to an hour.
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You know, and I, I thought, I thought to myself an hour?
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I, I, I had only prepared 15 minutes, but I, I'll try, you know, so I'm gonna give it a shot so, you know, we'll see, we'll see what happens.
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Two poems.
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Fish serpent egg scorpion.
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This is for my son, Kelly.
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For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.
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What father among you, if his son asks for a fish, will give him a snake instead?
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Or if he asks for an egg, will give him a scorpion?
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Luke 10 12.
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There were no tears, but in the commotion of these emotional days, the impetus for tears, when I said to him, there in the
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cold street, wearing our sporty winter jackets, I am your gift, this body before you, still here to say, let's take a walk,
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son, me, this complex of secure love.
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I'm not your enemy, not a murky pond of dangers.
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Don't you know that when I was your age, my hunger for a shelter in a man's heart was already dust?
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He was dead, gone, and all I had was the surrogates of his letters, the clues of a narrative of love in his fiction and
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poems, the snippets of affection from his old friends, hardly enough, but all I had upon which to build an edifice of meaning.
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And I wrote then, World, world, world, that I have lost, full of every melodrama of mourning, though it was never hyperbole, never a lie.
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I said to him, So, son, here I am.
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And my voice was phlegmy and earnest, here I am for you, so use me, feed on me, I'm your father, use me.
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Perhaps we most, we must all say this, or have thought to say this, we who father sons.
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Maybe.
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Every poem has its own ancestry, but this was us,
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me embracing him, and him saying, sorry, Dad, I know.
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And even now, it breaks me that I could present him with my body, my mortality, my leaving him; that I
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could let him feel the start of his long mourning before it has to come.
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I said, I said, I could die today, not as hyperbole, but as a truth that runs through my veins, my lungs.
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This is love, then, a father and a son, him handsome, fluid, tender, the boy and man, all there, and me mourning for his bereavement.
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It was a passing thing.
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We re-entered the house with the noises of the season, laughter, even as if that moment between us could be set aside.
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Of course, we know it will not be.
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I know that this father must say again and again,
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I made, I'm made for you, and I will not promise you a fish and then hand you the threat of a serpent.
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Thank you.
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So this is the last poem on this wonderful, wonderful, wonderful event.
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My gosh.
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No pressure.
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My gosh.
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No pressure.
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Thank you, Jericho.
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I'm sure you've got it.
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You think so?
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But it's a kind of benediction.
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It's a benediction.
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It's a benediction for all of us.
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And it's from an old book of mine.
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I wrote this in 1994.
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That's a long time ago for me anyway.
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It's the last few lines of that poem, Prophets.
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I'm reluctant to leave it like this.
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The tricks, the sin, the betrayals, as if this was all.
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Our journey has drawn us astray and remiss.
1:58:44
We are turning to the old songs.
1:58:46
Molly's call from The darkness is pure light and hope despite the countless dead.
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This song has wallowed in its grief as if there was no music.
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All the songs we've heard as if there was no music in the bright after mornings, no prayer caught in the missed delicate sieve.
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Now rising up like a fisherman's weighted saying to God, the tambourines celebrate the joy of faith rewarded the sickly child.
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Awakening after prayer sight returned to a warped cornea hope in a miracle of a child born intact.
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How green is the island when it rains?
1:59:25
This song has lamented like a spoiled child.
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Yet how can we turn from these miracles without tears of thanksgiving in our eyes?
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I write this poem with trepidation, as if this tantrum might bring down the wrath of the Almighty.
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But the prophets no longer grow through the stinking city.
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Their feet skip on the mountains.
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The cleansed are dancing on the hill's broken path.
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And now there is laughter and belief in mornings.
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Roots natty roots, dread binghi dread, I and I are the roots.
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Roots natty, dread binghi, I and I are the roots.
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Got to survive in this man manmade downpression.
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Got to survive in iration.
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I said roots natty roots.
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Dread binghi dread.
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Because I and I are the roots.
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Give thanks.
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My name is Jericho.
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I, um, I'm here because when I was 22 years old, um, I guess it's 26 years ago or so.
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Um.
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I went, um, I was attending a poetry workshop in New Orleans called The No More Literary Society, um, facilitated by a man called Kalamu ya Salaam.
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And he had told me, uh, he told me about a poetry reading.
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And I went to the very first poetry reading that I went to that was not assigned to me.
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And at that reading, uh, it was given by a man named Niyi Osundare.
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And, um, and I met while I was there, these two really gifted poets named Yona Harvey and Terrence Hayes.
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And, um, I have always thought that that was the first day of the rest of my life.
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And I'm telling you this now because for someone else in this room, it is the first day of the rest of their poetry life.
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And it is important that we welcome them forever.
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And they might not even know it is the first day of their poetry life.
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But it is important that all day, every day when we poet it, that we poet it as if we are doing it for the first day of someone else's life.
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That we understand that that is how our kindness works.
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With one another.
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In that respect, it is important that we are here today, that we understand we are here today because of the love
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of Joanne Gabbin, but also because Joanne Gabbin gave us enough love that she was willing to pass the torch.
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And we have because of that passing of the torch and because of this really wonderful, wonderful phenomenon of
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these last few days, one of the most international Black poetry festivals ever.
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Thank God.
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And,
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and so my last word here is just that it is very important that we remember that Lauren Alleyne is the Executive Director of the Furious Flower Poetry Conference.
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Because, because she is that, because she's a poet.
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Do not forget 10 years from now or two days from now, that she is first a poet and appreciates being considered as such and so.
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We've heard poems from everybody but her.
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We had a bit of a mutiny where she wanted us to read everybody's bio and we did not want to read everybody's bio.
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But I will tell you now that Lauren Alleyne is the Executive Director of the Furious Flower Poetry Center and Professor of English at James Madison University.
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She's the author of two collections, Honeyfish and Difficult Fruit.
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Ladies and gentlemen, my girl.
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Y'all Jericho, jacked me up in the corner and was like, I need you to say yes before I ask you something.
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Um, and he said all the things he just said, which just made me feel better about being 30 minutes late this morning
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because I had to write a poem that I was gonna read for y'all anyway.
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So it was like I'm trust fell and it worked out.
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And these are my closing remarks, kind of, I have to say a bunch of thank yous, but I wrote this this morning for you.
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What worlds we make when we see each other.
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Here, the heavenly bodies of us, Black and brown, and beautiful breath full breeding the full whirling whirlwinds of us here
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in present tense, in present time, we are what worlds we resurrect from the black holes of their stolen or untimely endings.
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Lazarus, we breathed back into being with each diasporic
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hello, each intergenerational corridor, conversation, every fist bump, handshake, and hug.
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What worlds in touch?
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What worlds in the holding absent of the holds to have made a world that holds us?
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What worlds we make when we hear each other's music, our new and familiar rhythms reshaping the orbits of us.
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Let us dance to us.
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Let us move in us.
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Let us rest in the atmosphere of each other's accents and laughter and silences.
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What planetary anthems our voices, what worlds in our throats, what worlds have blossomed in each of us?
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Through this new knowing of each other, the constellations of our unique universes patterning each other's skies.
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We bask in the light of each other's radiance.
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We pulse in the gravitational pull of each other's words.
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What magnificent magnitude, what essential bond, what plural and possible horizons, what infinite worldings become of our becoming we.
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What worlds we make possible when we love each other.
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Lift each other.
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Hold us in the fullness of each other.
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Declare we are each other's genesis and joy.
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When the Black gods of us fashion us again in our image, you and you, and you, and you and you, and Black and Black and Black, and we say we belong to each other.
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We exist in each other.
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We live in each other.
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We home to each other.
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We nation of each other.
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We love and we love and we love each other.
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We here with each other.
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We are word and world to each other.
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We say Ashay, and it is good.
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I have a list of thank yous.
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Thank you, thank you.
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Oh, more, more people on the stage.
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I'm gonna let you finish in just a minute.
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No, no, no.
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Stay.
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Yes.
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You don't get to go.
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So
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go ahead.
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Don't want to delay the closing comments, but we did want to come up, uh, because we
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wanted to make sure that Lauren K. Alleyne did indeed have the final words on this, um, on this gathering.
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And so I'll just say I'm, I'm standing here, um, on behalf of the Furious Flower Advisory Board.
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Um, and I will say personally, and I will say that I think I speak for many of us when I say that being a part
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of this board and chairing this board is like the honor of a lifetime for so many reasons and in so many ways.
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But chief among them is to watch this woman work.
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Lauren dreams big, plans big, visions big at all times.
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And even the idea of this theme of the worlds of Black poetry and this idea to take Furious Flower, make it global, make it broad, make it diasporan.
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We were like, you know, this is more work on you.
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Right?
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Right.
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Bringing all these folks in from all corners of the globe was just an, a act of, of vision, an act of daring, an act of boldness, but an act that was
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so deeply rooted in her love of Furious Flower, her love of Black poetry, her love of Black poets and her love of us.
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And we just want to take a moment to say thank you, thank you, thank you.
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We appreciate you deeply.
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I was supposed to say the significance of the, of the symbolism, of the gifts.
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The candle says Bookshop.
2:10:50
Buy Lauren K. Alleyne's book.
2:10:52
I've seen all y'all out here buying books and rushing to get 'em signed.
2:10:55
So that's one.
2:10:56
And she didn't ask me to do that since I was on the board.
2:10:59
And I, it is an unofficial statement, not an official board statement.
2:11:02
Um, but don't just buy it, read it, um, and the flowers.
2:11:06
We hope that at the end of this conference that you'll see those and rest not, and relish and not be tired of seeing the Furious Flower logo colors.
2:11:17
That's it.